Brennan Manning (speaking about waking up years ago in a gutter, after he began to follow Jesus, in an alcoholic fog and what Jesus has shown him since then): “…and the God I’ve come to know, the Jesus I have met in my own life loved me as much that morning in a state of disgrace as He does tonight in a state of grace. For His compassion is never, NEVER, never based on our performance. It knows no shadow, alteration or change. Jesus is the fulfillment of the Isaiahan prophecy. The bruised reed of your life He will not crush, and the smoldering wick He will not quench… This night will you let Jesus come to you on His terms? Will you let Him love you as you are and not as you should be? Because nobody [here] is as they should be.” He goes on to say, “The day you surrender in faith, in unwavering trust, in reckless confidence to the compassion of Jesus in your life, I promise you, every trace of shame, guilt, remorse, self-hatred, self-condemnation, will vanish from your life. Jesus Christ is not simply a bit of information in the Bible. He is the transformation, the transforming power of God! And this night when you surrender in your brokenness, in your sinfulness, in your darkness, in your emptiness, in your phoniness, when you come to Jesus and say, ‘Here I am, it’s all I got” and let Jesus come to you on His terms. Let him come to you as the Son of Compassion. Let Him bring healing to your heart. Total forgiveness for every sin of your past life. Let Jesus be who He is: Your Savior.”
What I long for with every fiber of my being is to surrender to Jesus the Compassionate One tonight and for the guilt of debt to be lifted. For the worry to be lifted. I am not excited about the future. I want to be excited about the future! I want to enjoy today!! I long to be so close to Jesus in my normal life that I get taken apart and and I want to have the desperate, beautiful, aching, often ignored NEED for Him to be filled!!!
So, I encourage you to get a cup of coffee and sit down for an hour to hear what he has to say.
I like what he says in the end, “May all your expectations be frustrated. May all your plans be thwarted. May all your desires be withered into nothingness that you may experience the powerlessness and poverty of a child and sing and dance in the compassion of God who is Father, Son and Spirit. Amen.”