Please keep me awake. I don’t want to start being the type of person who I’ve been frustrated with for all these years. I want to be aware and hungry and face to face with you. I wonder how many years I’ll have to pray to see you and know you more before it happens? Or does it happen gradually, every day. If it does, that’s something to be thankful for, but I would really, really love to have a moment where light explodes and I really see you and hear you and smell you and walk and talk with you. I don’t think that’s against what you want for me, so I’m going to keep asking for it because even if I didn’t verbalize it, that longing is always, always inside of me!
I love you.